End of Birthday Month: LET IT GO!

At the end of 3 wonderful years of blogging, I am so thankful for the art of writing. It helped me get through the most difficult of times. Some of you have asked what else I wrote. I kept a journal in which I wrote every time Carlton developed a new symptom. The main goal was to have a record of when the problem began so I could tell the doctor. And I did refer to it often to remind myself how long a certain condition had been going on. There was nothing formal about this, just a running dialogue with myself on the computer. I put it in the same folder as the record of his medications.

Sometimes I wrote when I was angry at having to repeat myself 3 or 4 times in a day. Or when I had to clean up the bathroom floor for the 2nd time in a day. I also wrote on days and nights when I asked God, “How long?” Parkinson’s can feel like forever, can’t it? But, I mostly wrote to remember. Maybe you have considered writing. If so, I recommend it.

Each time I wrote in frustration, there was a sense of letting it go. Letting go of the anger, the bitterness, the guilt for feeling that way. And letting go is healthy. It’s even in the Bible. Paul said, “Forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, 14 I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.” Phil. 3:13 – 14.

Let go and reach forward because it is healthy for each of us to think about the future. One of the best things I did while Carlton was sick was make a list of what I wanted to do someday. First, I made a list of what I would change about our house. I tried to prioritize the list, putting the most pressing thing first, etc. Then I made a casual bucket list of things I wanted to do someday. We all need something to look forward to, something to give us hope for a better future.

To those who wrote asking for last week’s handout, please forgive me. It will be to you this weekend. And to everyone, all handouts are available until March 31st. So, please email me if you’d like any or all. They are described in the other blog posts from this month.

Thanks for reading and commenting. I’m praying this prayer for you:

Published by parkinsonscare

I'm a retired mathematics teacher, mother, and grandmother. I cared for my husband for 23 years, and now he is in Heaven. My new mission in life is to support and encourage caregivers like you!

5 thoughts on “End of Birthday Month: LET IT GO!

  1. Thank you once again, Cheryl. The varied emotions I feel with Aaron can be exhausting. I go from frustration to anger to laughter because of his behaviors and his way of handling life with autism. Then there is deep compassion and sorrow when he’s having seizures. But I think the hardest of the two issues are his behaviors because my reactions can cause guilt. Your experiences and advice are so helpful. Bless you, my friend.

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