HOPE after Darkness

Today is Saturday before Easter. If we place ourselves back in time, we realize that Jesus is dead, and the disciples are devastated. What should they do now? Jesus was their hope, their Savior. Yet, He was dead. Some call this day, “Silent Saturday” because God in Heaven was silent.

However, we know from history that Jesus rose from the dead on Easter morning! Hallelujah! When the disciples heard this, they passed the news by greeting each other with “HE IS RISEN!”, and the response came back, “HE IS RISEN INDEED!”

Before my husband passed into Heaven, there were days when I felt I was in a silent period of my life. Here is a partial reprint from 2/2/2019:

Being totally honest here, there are moments in my day when life is dark.  Within one 24-hour period my husband can go from walking across the room without any aid to not being able to lift his fork to eat. Totally independent to totally dependent, with the entire spectrum in between – all in a day.  Many of you have experienced the same phenomena.

Because of this, there are times when I feel that the weight of the household is really on me now. Do you feel that way? We used to be partners in life, and in the pure sense of the word, we still are. But in reality, it is all up to me now. I used to rely on him to physically help with things around the house and to give me moral support and comfort. But Parkinson’s has changed all of that. He just cannot do those things physically, mentally, or emotionally. I believe it takes everything he has to just make it through another day. There is nothing left to contribute to our household or to me.

There are times when the weight of this feels like it will suffocate me like I cannot possibly do it all. In those dark moments, I feel totally alone.

But those moments are few and brief. It seems that just as I feel that the situation is hopeless and I am bearing the weight of the world on my shoulders, God gives me a wink. As I type this, it is early morning, and I look out the window at the sky above the roof to see a beautiful cloud formation with gorgeous colors, and it makes me smile. Then a male cardinal lands on the roof of the patio, just at the edge of my vision. He is beautiful – bright red against a colorful sky. And I realize how blessed I am. God is with me.

My friend, God was with me even during that “Silent Saturday” period of my life, just as God is with us today. So, tomorrow, on Easter morning, let us all thank God for being with us and for His power over death.

Because Jesus lives, we will live also. Death cannot hold us when we place our trust in the God who gives life! Hallelujah, thanks be to God.

Published by parkinsonscare

I'm a retired mathematics teacher, mother, and grandmother. I cared for my husband for 23 years, and now he is in Heaven. My new mission in life is to support and encourage caregivers like you!

9 thoughts on “HOPE after Darkness

  1. We all need to feel that hope, don’t we? Especially on days like your yesterday. I do understand, and God understands even more, Patty. I’m praying for you all! Thank you for your encouragement.


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